I want to relive those moments but not a short one

Well, I think it's a good thing to reminisce about my first relationship. It actually made me realise how many bad decisions I have made and all the great lessons plus adventurous experiences I have gathered. To my understanding, I believe that a relationship is a relationship when there is a real bond, which means when you connect physically and get to see and talk, when you spend time together, and when you do things together not just talk over the phone and text relationship and before I forget when there is some intimacy between the two of you, so this my definition made all relationship have heard before the one I want to talk about irrelevant to me.

It was during the seasons of 2016 harmattan, that I might the beautiful damsel at work or should I say just a 1month and half gig with a communication company, we were employed but I didn't notice her until a girl slapped me just because I said I can't be in a relationship with her due to some certain reason which I made known to her. I guess it was the slap that opened my eyes the next morning when I got the work because the slap happened a day before I saw her but thank God it did happen in a crowded place because the shame would be unbearable.

PICTURE IS MINE

I got to work and notice this beautiful lady three desks opposite my desk and ever since that day I couldn't stop staring at her, she is the first person I look for when I get to work but we haven't started talking and she didn't notice me, but my partner on my desk knows I kept staring at her and advise me to go talk to her but she looked too matured for me which is actually is, she is 7 years older than me, then on this faithful she noticed me and that day I felt like entering the ground, for good 10 hours we played the staring competition which I got shy and couldn't stare back, it was that day I walked up to her after work and the rest was history.
We started as friends and gradually we became more than friends and every one of my friends and a few people were jealous of what we had, we don't get tired of being around each other, and she gives me my respect despite I'm younger and the energy was so easy to give back. Our communication was like that of the heavens, the love was magical and it was real and if I'm been honest I haven't felt anything like that till today.

The love story would have ended up in marriage but I just felt at one point that I was wasting her time, I was just 20 then and she was all riped for marriage so I had to let her go and it still hurt every time I remember because it 7 years now and she is still not married and I won't know even if she is waiting for me because I'm still not ready to be sure financially I don't have what it takes but probably if the God say amen to my prayer sooner maybe I might ask her hand in marriage.

Well, I hope you had fun reading this, it's that same person that preach about love.