Keep Going#218

Good afternoon hivers! :)

I would like to join this week contest in Ladies of Hive. I hope it would be accepted.

I would like to answer this particular question: Think a little bit about your life, about how you have lived the year that is ending. Do you identify any aspects that have been left behind? Are you still dreaming of something you haven't achieved?

Life is full of uncertaintes. We never what will happen next.

I am thinking about my life about how I lived the year taht is ending. My life this year is a bit of challeges where wrong decision making was evident in current situation where I can say struggles are real. I had so many bad decisions made this year that skaken my comfort and financial freedom.

It was all started when Mrs. A asked for help in her financial needs. In my mind, I won't help her because it was not her first time to ask me to borrow her money. It changed when we had a video call and she was falling in tears asking for help. I decided to help her for the last time in exchanged for my ATM in paying Mrs L's loan in my account to be paid in full so that I can renew my loan for that certain amount.

Another one happened when Mr H asked me to borrow a certain amount of money so that the "buhos" in their house will continue. They guaranteed that they will pay in full for the next month. Since, it was raining that time I agreed because in my mind they will back to zero when not finished on time. Time passed and it was paying time but the agreement was not followed because they only paid in half. They paid the exact amount of money borrowed but I was paying the interest rate. It was disheartening for me that time because I don't have a salary for that month. I have moved on. I am hoping that 2025 will be a year of achieved dreams for me.

Am I still dreaming of something that I haven't achieved of?

Yes, I believe so. I wanted to pursue my post graduate studies so that I can make things better and prepared for something that is unknown to me. Maybe, it was hidden in my subconscious mind long time ago waiting for the perfect timing and the motivation to do so.

As long as we are alive, wrong decisions can be corrected as long as we have the courage and determination to do so.

Thanks for reading! :)