LOH #158 : DEAR DIARY 2023

Dear diary,

It's just 2months to the end of the year 2023 and I still feel like I have not gotten to what I had planned to achieved this, I still drawn back from my set goals which I thought were going to be realistic from the onset, I feel like the burden of the year is too great that it capsized most of my ambitions, aspirations and desires, I feel like the weight of my existence is heavy and I really need a peaceful and quiet place to offload all that is within me and also without.

I want to fight desperately but it goes with the saying that the spirit is willing but the body is weak. Tasks and expectations of me are piling up and none is getting sorted or achievable. The society is breathing down my but I don't care, but deep down in me I wish it can just happen or become a reality for me without people clamoring or ringing it like a bell in my head.

The remaining 62 days seem short but I believe, I have faith, I have hope, I m determined to scale through even if it's one of the burden that weighs me down. I want to fight because I want to accomplish the mission that feels impossible, I want to be a woman that is selfless, that is a fighter and struggles to break through barrier regardless of my situation. Nothing can weigh me down, not pain, not sickness, not principalities, not even nature. I am of the opinion that as long as there is life there is hope for me regardless of my condition.

Diary, this year has been a hurdle, my country has even made it worse for my generation, it has made us the youth feel like our best are not good enough, we keep struggling and fighting day and night but some principalities in government just seem to sabotage our efforts. We are weary, we are tired but for God's sake, we do not want to look like what we have been through. Plans were canceled as the dollar was not friendly to carry out appointments, traveling plans to visit other places asides home was not feasible.
Lifestyle changed for various.

But In all, I am daily reminded that being alive is a leasing on its own that many people are looking for, being healthy alone is enough to be grateful for. Although the year is still hopeful with a lot to come up. But I am entirely grateful for the gift of life, for the gift of family who are relentless In my case and situation, for the gift of friends who do not butt out and leave, for the gift of hive Community who made me explore my blogging life extensively this year, for 5he gift of the INLEO community and its positive effect in my life, for the gift of my craft and for the gift to make money to take care of my needs and sustain myself and those around me. Thankful to the #ladiesofhive community for this beautiful contest that helps to relinquish and relieve some thoughts.

Dear diary, it's been a long time coming I am not there here but I am definitely getting there and surpassing it. Its hard now doesn't mean it will be hard tomorrow. It's stressful doesn't me it will be tomorrow, it's painful does not determine that tomorrow will same. I will live each day to the fullest and enjoy it as it comes.

                        Gracias.

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