Prioritizing things I'm short of - LOH #215

As the year draws to a close, I get this imagination of what I want for my next year. I want good health, financial stability, and being closer to God.

I attended a conference a few weeks ago that made me sit myself down to question what I really want. The truth is that I want a lot, but how ready I am to accomplish these goals. Just like last year, I could remember writing my goals on the first day of the next year, which is this year, and I pasted it on the wall where my eyes could get to it. Some achieved while some yet to be achieved.

I have to evaluate myself; most times I lack confidence, and sometimes I feel overwhelmed and determined, and yet I end up doing nothing. I procrastinate a lot, and almost every day I get into arguing with myself a lot.

A few months ago, I struggled with reading and understanding. Sometimes I read, and after some time, I can't recall what I read, so I started this therapy within myself, telling myself if I want to achieve greatness, I have to be ready to put in the work. I bought a book titled “Finding Purpose.” As much as I hate reading, I have to read two chapters daily till I finish the book. I was surprised at myself; this was me telling myself that I can't, but I finally did. I was so proud of myself, and I felt a slight fulfillment within me. Since then I began reading anything at all. I don't have to put much pressure; one chapter is enough.

I struggle with time management. I have to read "Time Management" by Brian Tracy, a book I will recommend for anyone struggling with how to manage time. I began to understand myself slowly, like I'm discovering something about myself that has always been hidden. Now I read every day, and I understand the value of time. Time is worth more than having millions in a bank account. Time can't be recovered, but money can even double. Like a self-discovery, I began to value things I didn't put so much attention to.

Additionally, I would like to work on my self-confidence. Sometimes I'm so determined, eager, and motivated, but just the next minute I will give myself a bunch of excuses not to meet my target. My innermost struggle is that each day I keep struggling with this picture that whatever I want to achieve is so vague. I plan to read more books, listen to more audiobooks, and watch more video clips to win my confidence back.

I can remember when I was in boarding school when I was in secondary school. I did minor business like selling my food. Entrepreneurship has been a thing for me, to be precise. I boil it down to farming and selling of farm products. This has been a dream I'm yet to achieve.

For my health, there are few times I fell sick, but I am grateful for the good health.
Nevertheless, I usually go for a checkup, and one of my checkups. I discovered I had low blood sugar. I have to change my diet and prioritize my health before every other time.