IT'S BEEN YEARS, WITHOUT YOU MY FRIEND

One thing I've gotten used to over the years is keeping relationships. In the past I haven't been good with keeping romantic relationships, I've had to end a lot of them, thereby hurting the people involved, and I've also been badly hurt myself. Looking back now I see how some silly decisions ended a great relationship. I still feel bad for those relationships and sometimes find myself wondering if the people involved had any atom of remorse or even missed what we had a little bit. We might have moved on, but I remember and find myself wishing If I could restart time and do it all over again perhaps I would have swallowed my pride and made it work. But then again I think about it and tell myself in doing so I may have just been prolonging the inevitable.

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During the period I dropped out of school, I needed to learn a skill and my mum introduced me to this guy who took me under his wings. He taught me everything I know about design and even though I was a very slow learner, he waited two whole years for me to develop. But when I got to the peak of my development, something happened. My mum was going on a journey and needed me to go with her, or should I say wanted me. Prior to that incident, I was sensing a breakout quarrel between us that would eventually sabotage our relationship for life. At that time we just got the biggest contract of our lives to work with a university and we had almost completed the job and were awaiting payment.

I wasn't happy with how my mum called me up for the journey, but I knew it was important to my family and asked my boss if I could go. (He was more like a big brother). I knew I was putting him in a very difficult position because he knew he couldn't say no since my mum was involved but he wasn't happy about it. The way he took it however was very weird. One minute he was like there was no problem, and the next minute I was home when he called me up to drop the office keys and all office assets in my possession. At this point I became confused and deeply hurt at the same time. He was like a big brother to me and on several occasions I've shown him nothing but love and loyalty.

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He on the other hand had shown me a great deal of love, and we had a lot of plans together, one of which was what we were going to do with the money we got from the contract. I had finished my part and was just waiting for his own part to be done before the university pays us our first settlement. Unfortunately after that fallout, we never spoke to each other until this day. It took me time, but I have moved on and I'm very sure he had. I had tried contacting him on several occasions, but he blocked me everywhere. The only time he reached out to me was when he needed access to one of his online accounts. That day I really wished we would talk, but unfortunately none of us mustered the courage to ask what really happened.

THIS IS MY RESPONSE TO HIVE LEARNER'S PROMPT FOR WEEK 126 EPISODE 2