MAKING TOUGH DECISIONS

Making decisions can be very hard, especially when these decisions will change the course of your life. I'm not one to easily make decisions, in fact, I'm currently at a crossroads with lots of pressure to make a particular decision that would change the course of not just my life but that of my family. I take every decision I make seriously, the same way I take promises very seriously. I take almost everything seriously 😑. My friends say I'm always serious, I tell them life itself isn't joking. But when it comes to making decisions, I first like to feel unserious before making that serious decision. I've made quite a number of posts concerning decisions I've made in the past and their aftermaths, and today I will be telling another that happened recently.

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If you have been following up with my posts you will know I recently graduated from the higher institution, but before I graduated I was faced with what I called the last educational battle. And just like anyone earning below the minimum wage in Nigeria, I had major challenges with finance. Now some will say it's a normal scenario, almost everyone is facing it, and I may agree, but then again, if you ever know the feeling of hopelessness and loneliness, you will understand that there's more to financial challenges than just the lack of money. It's easy to strive when you know you have a fail-safe, when I talk about a fail-safe, I talk about relatives, family, and friends.

Everyone is hustling to survive, so when we hustle together as a family it's easier to strive, but when you are in a position of trying to meet up with your daily needs (which you often fall short of) and you are faced with the bills from school knowing even if you decide to sell everything you have, it will not be up to half of what you need. That was the case for me, coupled with the fact that my rent was already three months overdue. The thought of being homeless was on one side, the thought of dropping out of school In my final year was on another side. But then there was a decision I had been pondering over for over a year before that time.

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It was the decision to take a loan and pay off everything, but then I had to duly consider first if I would be able to pay back the loan I was thinking of taking. It was really bad for me because coupled with everything happening, my family looked up to me for assistance and I wasn't meeting up with any of these. I also couldn't call anyone for assistance because there was no one to call. I know I have a lot of relatives, but I have never been close to any. Worst of all was that I couldn't talk to anyone about any of these until a friend who cared forced it out of me, even though she couldn't do anything about it, it felt good telling someone.

I reached the climax of my tolerance and decided to take the big step by taking a loan I had only thought about. It was rusty for me as I only depended on the hive to pay back, but I knew if I didn't take it, I would suffer more. Dropping out of school wasn't an option, getting off hive (my phone was very bad then) wasn't also an option. Hive was the only thing I could survive on as a student, and I could not watch my little means of income go down because I was too scared to make a decision. Well, I took the loan, paid off my fees, and got myself a new phone. I'm lucky to have gotten a job afterward, now I'm working on paying back my loan, and I do not regret any decision I made even if my fears of not paying back come to reality.

THIS IS MY RESPONSE TO HIVE LEARNER'S PROMPT FOR WEEK 97 EPISODE 2