THE TIME I LOST MY ZEAL

A friend of mine usually says Some days are like that those days where you feel like doing nothing but just want to sleep all day, those days where your body and mind just feel like resting even though there's a lot to be done. But then just because your body and mind want to rest, doesn't mean the world would stop moving and wait for you to catch up. At that point, you don't even feel the need to catch up, until reality dawns on you. Like many, I have been in such scenarios several times, and it has cost me too. I will be sharing one of such events in this post, so without further ado, let me jump right into it.

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It's no News that I'm part of a theater group, I've talked about it on different occasions. This year we had a number of things planned for the year which was supposed to have started in January but has been on hold because I have been nonchalant in my duties. My duty as a scriptwriter and head of creatives means that the planning of every activity of the group rests on my decision to do the work. If I'm not working, the theater group is affected. This has been the faith of my theater group, and I must admit, I'm not proud of it seeing we achieved a lot last year because of my ideas and the contribution of many, but have achieved nothing this month because I haven't been committed to my duties.

I forced myself to make some interesting goals for the team which should take us through the year. The goals were supposed to kick start immediately after the year began which involved learning new roles, languages, and acts that should improve our skills. But even the learning process needed to be planned and the acts scripted. My director has been on my neck, but I've been giving flimsy excuses until I decided to finally come up with a few things last week. It wasn't easy for me as I wasn't 100% body and mind while I wrote it. It was as though my mind was being stubborn, not ready for any sort of work.

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This is the reason I haven't even written a post this year in the ink well and scholars and scribe community. It's become hard to sit and fictionalize events, scenarios and stories. Now my theater group was called upon to do an advert skit, something only a few of us are good at. I went for rehearsals today after setting everything up. I discovered that the advert would require a good number of actors, and since only a few of us know the principles of skits, others would have to learn. But the issue is that the shooting is on Sunday, and there's not enough time to learn it.

Stage performance is different from skits and advertisements, at least 3 weeks of training is required to make one good enough to take a sub role. Now seeing only a handful of us can do it, there are just three of us available for the lead roles, two other strong hands are needed, and sub roles are not even certain because our actors have not been trained, which is entirely my fault. In rehearsals today, I could see the frustration on my director's face trying to teach these actors everything in one hour. I feel bad for what my nonchalant attitude caused, and I wish to make amends, but there's nothing I can do.

THIS IS MY RESPONSE TO HIVE LEARNER'S PROMPT FOR WEEK 99 EPISODE 2