TRUTH AND LIES

6 days ago

It’s sad to say that I’ve been a really good liar growing up, I think that’s one of the things that made me a good actor. I lied to my parents a lot since they always wanted to cage and control me, making me do their bidding and live the life they envisioned. I would say I was never caught 98% of the time, the times it looked like I was caught they never knew the whole truth and I went with very little punishment. My experience with them made me learn to lie on the spot or not say the complete truth because a good lie isn’t really the opposite of the truth but merely a perversion. Although I’m not proud of the things I have done, the life I have lived has made me know when someone is lying to a very large extent.

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But then again something I never thought would happen and that was me being caught in a lie, and this time it was by my partner. By the way I try to be very transparent with her and always tell the truth, and the truth was this time I was going to tell her not just at the moment she discovered. We have a kind of relationship where we share everything and hold each other accountable for our actions, especially in the area of our finances. This faithful day I had told my partner a lie about how I spent some of my money, not knowing she already knew the truth because she had access to my home and had seen a receipt of what I used the money for.

She acted as though she believed the lie until I slept and woke up that day only to be asked again about how I spent the money. I knew immediately something was up but I decided to still continue with the lie without breaking a sweat. Immediately she asked me why I was lying, I felt a chilling sensation go through my spine, it was as though someone poured ice water on me. At that moment I looked her in the eye and apologized. We argued a little about it and the rest is history. But when I think about it everyday I realize how stupid I was. Lying to her felt like I was lying to myself but I kept on lying while she gave me a lot of chances to come clean.

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If tomorrow I discovered this partner of mine is a mind reader and has always read my thoughts from the onset, my reaction would definitely depend on how I get to know. Definitely I will feel used and betrayed, because it’s obvious she had the power and knows me in and out but decided to still stay with me which would make me wonder why. If she is the one who eventually tells me, I will see it as a form of respect even though it hurts, but if I discover on my own, the chances of that relationship ending is very high because she could decide to poison me for something I thought and I would die without knowing why. Long story short I might never be able to trust her again if I discover by myself which I hope I don’t. Better still I hope she’s not a mind reader in real life.