Dear Diary, my Loyal Companion... - #LOH 158

Hello wonderful people @Ladiesofhive community, it’s a pleasure to be participating in this week contest.

There have been many things happening lately that has taken me back to my diary. That’s when i realized how long it had been since i last updated my diary. That was 3 years ago. But these past few days, my diary has been my best friend.

Dear diary...
Today i take the time to share my thoughts and feelings with you.
The first thing I’ll like to tell you that I’m back again to the hive block chain after going for break for 6 months. I had issues with my phone, and i felt bad because i missed out. But I’m excited i have been able to repair my phone and I’m back for good. Years ago, I was very afraid to start hive because i wasn’t good at writing but i was encourage by @uyobong to start which I’m happy i did.

Secondly, it’s been 3 weeks since i lost my mom. It has really been a tough time. I lost my dad last year. Losing both parents in a space of 1 year is disheartening and leaving me to cater for the family at a young age. Memories swinging back and forth and causing emotions which make me cry and feel sad almost every day. Sometimes i feel depressed and suicidal thoughts always ringing in my head but i am happy for the gift of hive block chain. Connecting to the internet to see beautiful and funny contents from hivers’ stirs up this unusual joy in me and makes me come out from my depressed zone.

Thirdly, there are only two months left for the end of the year, Iand the way it’s going it seems i’ll be ending this year on a bad note but i still have hope that things could change positively.

Interestingly enough, I’ve finally decided to end things with the man i once believed was my soul mate, the man i never imagined myself leaving. This is really heart breaking but I’m moving on.

On the other hand, I have something good to tell you. I hope you remember the event i was anticipating about for 4 years now, I finally attended it this year. It was so fun, i learnt new things, i made new friends and connected with them. I was sad because my phone was bad that i couldn’t take pictures with my new friends but i borrowed a phone from a friend to take personal pictures for remembrance.

Lastly I apologize for neglecting you for so long. I know that there are no excuses, but i could tell you that in adulthood, time is a precious resource.
I promise to continue writing and share with you the ups and downs of my life, my triumphs and defeat, my plans and my mistakes.

Thank you for taking the time to read my words and for being there for me, always.
Much love, Dear Diary.
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