I have been involved in a lot of activities for example: Traveling but that doesn't mean my real world is changing. I feel that way because no matter how many good opportunities I get or get a chance to be involved in good things, the real circumstance is constant. I used to believe that when something good happens in life, it reflects on your present and changes the situation a bit, but my current condition is almost the same. I haven't talked about my treatment recently because there is nothing to talk about. Behind the scenes, my treatment is ongoing and every day I fight with myself to feel good and positive. Trauma and depression is real, a sickness that consumes a human completely and push them into darkness. They come and go, like a flashback; you completely forget about the reality. Those flashbacks drag you to the past and throw you there. You are consumed by the darkness and emotions, and when you come back to reality, you feel nothing but emptiness.

My depression eats me in a different way every day. How do I figure it out? Well, currently all of my therapy sessions and treatment process is intense. I cry a lot while describing each and every emotion in front of an unknown individual; my doctor and psychologist. I cannot let my emotions go instead I keep them locked inside me and let them consume me every day. I feel normal whenever my surrounding changes. But like I said, in real it's not always possible to change constant surroundings and conditions.

After my Poland trip, I had to attend a lot of appointments and one of them was medical evaluation or evaluation of my psychotic issues. The refugees who take psychotic or psychiatric treatment, all have to go through this evaluation because treatment costs are provided by the government. So, the government needs to know how you are doing and the details of your problem and treatment process. The assessment is done by the doctor but the uncomfortable fact is you don't know the doctor and explaining in front of some unknown is very difficult, especially about mental health. I don't know what kind of process is for locals or others living in the Netherlands.

La Defense - Office Building

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The day arrived so quickly. Anyway, the location was somewhere near Almere Centrum so when I reached to the destination; I was kinda astonished to see the office complex.

A huge office complex with chromatic colors was in front of me. The color changes according to sunlight, and the facades of the buildings look different at different times of the day because of the use of chrome (reflective surface) colors or should I say metallic colors.

Before my appointment I didn't pay attention to details, I just walked towards the building for my appointment. I had no expectations from this assessment, I was honest about myself and that's it.

Well, get ready for a lot of photographs.

It is one building complex but it is designed in such a way that will make you feel you are within several buildings. An abstract rectangle form was designed in such a way that created not only courtyard spaces but also linear-shaped buildings/strip-shaped volumes. At first, I thought 2-3 linear-shaped rectangle buildings interlocked with each other and created multiple spaces. But later after seeing the entire complex, I figured out it was two strip-shaped volumes that were designed to create interesting courtyard spaces. source

To make it easier to understand I would say carving a rectangle form. For example: you have a rectangle shape form in front of you and when you start cutting the form, you create space and a small liner and several differently shaped forms will be created as well as different spaces. An architect plays with these forms and spaces and creates a large complex by joining or interlocking the forms to make the shape solid and uniform.

In this case, two interlocking strip-shaped volumes were chosen on the pentagonal site.

The construction of this complex started in 1999 and finished in 2004.

Outside of the building facades are silver aluminum facades. The facades that face the courtyards are made of glass wrapped with reflective foils that produce chrome metallic red, yellow, orange, and green colors from time to time depending on the sunlight. Mostly colors depend on the sun's position.

In the main courtyard, two sculptures are located, one is a tree and the other one is a human figure with a deformed head (that's what I understood). The complex is restricted and not open to tourists during office hours. But I think the complex is fully restricted and not open to tourists. This office building is a government building and many important offices from the government are located there. source

I walked there for some time, I was trying to feel the vastness of the space and building. I felt so small compared to the space and building. It was not a skyscraper but the design made it different and dynamic.

For architectural photography, this is a good example.

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I not gonna drag my treatment progress in this post anymore, enjoy the photos if you cannot understand the design of this dynamic building because I am still trying to understand the design concept of this office building complex.

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