LOH Contest #158------ Dear Dairy 🤍

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Dear Dina.....
It's really been a while since I last spent some time with you due to my busy schedule as a final year student in school. My years in school has been one hell of a ride and an amazing one as well, because there are times things became really difficult and some other times things happen that creates this sweet memories that I have of school.

Finally, the journey of 5 years has come to an end and right now, I almost subdued by so many emotions at once. So many questions without answers has found their ways into my mind and they've all managed to build a castle for themselves in there.

What does life has in store for me?, Where do I begin this new phase of life from?, How does life after school feels like?, How high can I go in life?, How low have I been?, Hope I won't feel out of place when I get out there?, Would I start making new friends (knowing fully well, how introverted I can be)?, Will I meet people's expectations of me? These were the questions running through my mind since I began getting close to my final exams till I signed out and even up till now.

There is this mixed feeling of excitement, anxiety, fear and happiness that has overwhelmed me for days now even though I try so hard to wade it off countless times. Though, I've had a lot of activities planned out for myself, dreams to achieve and lives to touch but how and when to go about it is something else entirely.

I've pondered on these things and I'm still pondering on them. I keep praying for divine direction from God so as not to fail him,fail myself and fail the people he has kept around me. I just want to be fine and see things work out for good for me .......

In conclusion, dear Dina, I have found myself in a situation and phase of life where my strength and ability will be put to test. I really want to emerge stronger, wiser, better, creative and and at the same time inspiring. So that I can look myself in the mirror and tell myself, "I DID/MADE IT"!!!