It has really been a while ladies . Sometimes work and family comes demanding more time than we expected, but I have always have us in mind and this week’s contest questions are ones that must not pass me by. Lovely interesting questions from our dear friend @joanstewart. And the No . 2️⃣ is one I love to contribute on

2️⃣: How do you feel when alone answering your thoughts 💭 ? Possibly you shared things in the past with your mother, grandmother, or sister - someone no longer with you - do you turn to them asking what would they say if they were with you today ? Please share those inner thoughts 💭 and fears you carry in your heart ♥️.

Honestly this question got me into deep emotions and made me thinking of how we can never forget our departed ones so easily especially those we loved 🥰 and cared for so much during their time here with us

Time without number I have continued answering myself with thoughts while alone of how curial death is. And I will go on to ask God sometimes why He created death. But will then answer myself , “ but humans can not live for ever” “ Death will surely come after life” I will answer my thoughts 💭.

But the pain is why will those who are young, those who have not fulfilled their purpose on earth 🌍, those who had so much dreams that will even affect others, born stars ⭐️ of a generation . These ones are not supposed to die because they were created for a purpose.

My beloved immediate brother Chris died 22 years ago at the age of 36 years to kidney problem. Not like now medicals has more ways to educate on health and illnesses, then it was not so much in the light especially with Africa where I come from. His death was a painful one because if its in this era, he will not have died.

We grew up having so much bond because we think alike then. He loves to care for others and had so much dreams of building a business conglomerates. He was already coming up into a business of cosmetics after graduating from Business Administration because he did not want to work for anyone. He was full of ambition. But death said no to all his dreams.

My mother could not bear the loss of his death easily, asking God to take her own life. Why will her son die before her was the question? But who asks God question? They said God is the one that directs and does things the way it pleases Him. But sometimes we as humans can not comprehend all these things. But thanks to God my mother was able to live up till 72 years before she departed.

And now after 22 years my beloved brother Chris departed, I still sometimes seats 💺 alone answering my thoughts because his kids are all grown. Grown without a father who loved 🥰 them so much. Two (2) girls and one (1) boy, the boy so much like him. Several times I have asked my brother what he thinks of not being here to see his kids all grown? Then will answer myself “ I know its not your fault that death defeated you.” This is also what he will answer me because he fought for his life .

His children needed him so much while growing up but he was not there. Their mother playing the role of a mother and that of a father . These are the thoughts 💭 that will always surface, then I will ask myself why do things like this happen to us? Why can families not live in completeness? Why should children not grow up with both parents around them?
Who asks God question?

However, we will continue to live this form of life because its in human nature to always reflect from things that are from the past. Some of them from good memories, others of emotions especially when it has to do with departed ones. I have also asked my mother to help me pray to God since she is in heaven, that God will hear her faster . And I will ask myself muttering, will God not hear you faster too? I know God hears us at all times.

Answering our thoughts 💭 are one way to keep our mental health active because we can always find solutions to any problem or challenges we are facing, as we speak to ourselves or reflect on what our departed loved one would have advised us especially when we feel their presence around us.

Thank you friends who read me. Sending you all love and blessings ❤️🥰😇.

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