LOH #190: The impact of sudden changes in my life!

It's been a while, Ladies of Hive Community!

Due to some important matters, I missed many weeks of joining here. So now, I am grateful to answer one of the questions initiated by @ifarmgirl for the Community Contest #190.

1️⃣ Changes are inevitable, but sometimes, we find it challenging to adapt to them. Was there a circumstance or a sudden change that impacted your life, routine, or lifestyle? How did you deal with it? Did you have a hard time? Please share the story.

Changes were indeed inevitable…

My life was filled with numerous events that led to ongoing changes. Indeed, everything changes, including the erratic weather. We were enjoying the sunshine a little while ago, but then the rain arrived out of nowhere.

Similar to what transpired in our lives, my mother died suddenly and without a farewell. It is challenging to adjust to these abrupt changes in our lives—especially for a mama's girl like me. My mother is the center of my world. It affected my routine, my life, and even how I lived.

Growing up, I depended on my mother; she was the reason behind everything I did. I tell her everything that's on my mind and everything that's in my heart, including every detail about myself. Even in my quietest and loudest moments, she is aware of it and truly understands me.

I can't live a day without her; she's like a world to me. She was also the person I used to find when I got home. She's the best doctor I've ever had because, in my weakest moments, I know she can heal me quickly with a touch of her hand.

She brightens and lifts my worst days. She is superior. She is the greatest friend who keeps me warm when I'm cold and the best therapist when life seems uncontrollable.

But everything about me changed when she died. And every day, it hurts like crazy.

I lost everything—my mother, my best friend, and everything else.

Everything will never be the same without her, and I will never feel content again. A gap in my heart affects everything I do, and it will be difficult for me to fill it again.

I depended on her when she was here, but now, I must be independent and do things independently. I have to prepare my food alone and prepare stuff on my own. Most of the time now, I am alone and lonely. I question my ability to survive each day and how I would manage without her at my side.

However, her love is still in my heart, inspiring me to move forward and get back up.

In addition, I have to walk without her because a strong woman raised me, and she will always be in my heart and thoughts. She seems to be telling me to "stand up, daughter" all the time. " You're capable of it. I'm sure you're capable of doing so."

I know that losing a parent never heals, but even though my heart was broken, I still have to live for the people and things she left behind.

She may not be with us physically anymore, but she will always be our angel because I am living with her love inside of me.