I Wanted It And I Knew I Didn't Need It

Once upon a time, I was broke. Broke to me means having no money to spend outside of the necessities. I want to share my story of when I was broke in this post as well as my guilty pleasure spending during the time I was finally able to have a small budget for spending.

The Time I Had No Money
This is no joke. There was a time in my life where I had no money. I was barley getting by. Long story short, I had an argument with my parents when I was eighteen years old. They told me if I didn't want to follow the house rules, then I should move out so I was a bit angry at the time so I said Ok I'll move out. I'm the type of person that likes to keep their word so I actually did it.

Moving out was tough and eye opening. I barely had any money saved but I needed to pay rent, gas, food and anything else that I wanted except for college which my parents paid for since they wanted me to keep studying. It was quite bad the first few months. I literally had no money; I had to skip meals and there were days where I didn't eat at all. I remember a time when the day I had to pay rent to came but I didn't have the money so I ended up telling the couple I rented the room from and they said it was okay. They were super nice to me and I would end up paying them later.

The Guilty Pleasure
I think everyone has a guilty pleasure in their spending. Something that they would buy even though they barely have any money. For me, that was on snacks and video games. I love snacks and it was something that I didn't need since I already have a lunch and dinner. Snacks actually add up to cost quite a lot if I look back at all the chips I bought and Pocky back during the time I was broke. I probably spent a few thousands on these snacks over the 3-4 years when I moved out.

Another thing I had a guilty spending on was League of Legends skins. Between this and the snacks, I think I regret spending money on this game. It was a total waste of money for these in game cosmetics that can't really carry on to anything in real life or outside of the game. To be honest, I also had a love and hate relationship with this game. This game was super toxic because people were raging and being toxic whenever someone played poorly. Despite all this, I still loved playing it which made me crazy and spend unnecessary money.

_{Picture of snacks at 7 Eleven near my House mostly chips and PS I bought the Classic Lays before writing this post}

I think the conclusion that should be drawn from my post is that we should try not to waste money on guilty pleasures. In the end, it's just a waste of money and there would be better ways to spend that money. I wish I saved and spent that money to invest into crypto back then but oh well there would be a lot of things for everyone to wish they did in the past if they could go back in time.

To be honest, I still do buy snacks now and then but it's nowhere near as bad as the time I was broke. To be fair, I would also consider myself more stable and I have a decent savings already so it's ok for me to enjoy some snacks. As for spending on gaming, luckily now I'm into web3 so most things I buy in web3 games can easily be sold in the marketplace meaning I could get my money back or even more money than I started with.